Monday 5 November 2007

Sex-Writers Anonymous

Why is it easier writing about sex anonymously?

Why did Nikki Gemmell (of Bride Stripped Bare fame) publish AN ENTIRE NOVEL under an unoriginal pseudonym that's used for every obscure mythical poem ever spoken?

Why do I feel more free writing whatever the hell I want without the worry that it might get traced back to my 'true' self? Is it even relevant? Shouldn't people know everything about a writer? And besides, most people that might tumble across this blog and recognise some similar writing styles of some girl they might know, with a history of relationships that sound eerily similar to another girl they might know, well then, what's the point at all?

It's easy. It's safe. No. It's safe-er.

Why should we be ashamed/embarrassed/private about our sex lives? And when we do tell our lover/potential partner our history, it could be read as 'right' or 'wrong'. A chequered past encourages instant judgement. With guys it's seen as a conquest, an impressive attribute, he's a 'ladies man'. But when it's girls simply expressing their sexual apetite and exercising their libido, they are labelled as sluts, perhaps even 'damaged goods', and nobody wants a part of THAT pie.

Today I was asked if I'm happy being single. When I answered an honest no, my friend was shocked. 'No? Not even a little bit?' he asked. I'm not entirely happy if I feel that there's no point even looking for someone here in Melbourne. What's the point?

I've been told that I'm intimidating, I'm a smart arse, I am too edgy and too 'in-yer-face' for the demure (scared of anything different) jewish boys of melbourne. But I dont want to believe that. Actually, I want some guy to disprove this negative response I'm being reminded of. I want a guy to tell me - "no, not ALL jewish boys are wimps, they're not all too self-conscious to flirt, too thick to see the charm in the abundant gorgeous jewish girls in melbourne" - these girls are smart, they are sexy, they are cultured, they are well read, they are attractive, they are funny, they love having a great time, they have ideas about being jewish, about the world, about being connected to other ideas and other people.

But are these girls waiting? Am I waiting? I'm not sure anymore. Can someone prove our jaded bitterness of Melbourne Jewish boys wrong?